We were all
of 17 then, me a few months older
In the
midst of an Accounting problem, I turned to my friend,
To share a laugh
and a giggle,
When I saw
you, sitting in an adjacent desk
Talking to
your friend, turning my way.
I didn’t
know the heart could feel so many different things
Until then,
when my eyes found you.
I gaped
unabashedly, shielded partly by my friend
Is this
what love at first sight was?
I didn’t
know, I couldn’t think.
Nor could I
eat, sleep and drink
since then.
Was it love, or was it an obsession?
I was
consumed by all things you.
Since that
moment, I existed solely for you
My eyes
searched for you everytime, in class
At the
traffic signal, in supermarkets,
Hoping
against hope, the universe would
Conspire to
bring us together.
My
imagination ran wild – dreaming up an apocalypse in which,
Everybody
but you and me perished
But despite
all this, I never approached you
Never went
up to you and said ‘Hi’,
Never sent
feverish love letters sprayed with fragrance.
And with
end of classes, you moved on
Having
never known what I felt
While I
lived only in my dreams, where I would courageously
Jump down
rooftops to be with you, in the mystery of the night.
Years later
– after we each found our respective loves
You still
existed in my life, as a tender memory
Of an
unattainable dream, an unrequited love,
And perhaps
that is for the better,
for if you
and I had come together, sourness
would have
wormed its way,
normalizing
us; and who wants normal?
I am
content of dreaming of a what could be,
And this is
my happily ever after.